It's been a few days since I've posted and I have now realized why it's been going on so long.
I've realized that my motivation to push is completely gone. I don't know what exactly it is but I think it is when I got my results from my last measurement day (here) I've just got discouraged and just haven't pushed the last little while.
I've surrounded myself with wonderful people but I just do not have the push in me right now and I think my small set back is why I'm feeling so down right now.
Many of people have said to me not to worry on how I feel it will pass and that I will get over this little hump. Honestly I do not believe them. They are not in my shoes, they do not know how I am feeling on the inside and I really am not a fan of people that say to me it's just in my head.
I haven't worked out since my booty camp session on Wednesday and I feel like there is no point. Right now I feel with all this hard work I have been through it just will not work and I will be this way for the rest of my life. It feels like I just have to accept that this is going to be me for the rest of my life.
Am I jealous of other people and how they look? Yes I am, I feel that even with the hard work I have put in I will never reach the goals I want.
I know it is something I have to get over this and I know it's only going to be me that is really going to fix this. I have wonderful support from my husband Mike and I feel like even with all the support and working hard, nothing is going to change.
The last week has been hard, hopefully this week it will be better.
Don't give up! You'll be so glad you didn't.
ReplyDeleteoh man! I have been there! I cry all the time because I figure I just can't change anything. And "being in your head" doesn't make it real. Of course it's in our head...what isn't? Most of what "exists" is "only" in our heads (yeah, I'm getting deep). But I think being in our head makes it that much more personal and biting. You are passionate about this, so you can do it. Tomorrow I will be getting my big butt back in gear for the first time. You do it tomorrow too. Then--even if nothing changes--we can both say we did it for that one day. We will worry about other days as they arrive.
ReplyDeletei meant it doesn't make it NOT real. Grrr...I'm still tired!
ReplyDeleteIt was too damn hot last week to do anything more than breath and even that was a challenge.
ReplyDeleteHere's what I know when you hit this kind of rut the natural thing is to tell yourself to take a break. This is always the wrong choice for me, I'll just give up.
Kick yourself in the behind and keep going.
The strength to keep going will come when you keep going.
I've been there too and still go through it. You can do it. Keep surrounding yourself with positive people that encourage you! Maybe you could get an accountability work out partner? I know that if I am accountable to some one else I am more likely to work out and therefore feel better about myself. Just remember that every one is different and differently shaped. I have to remind myself about that all the time. I will never have thin, long legs to strut nor will my boobs ever be big (unless I am breast-feeding) I am who I am and I am finally learning to accept that...even with bad days. But when you know there is room for improvement it is hard. Just keep positivity surrounding you! You can do it girl!
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